"Get Me Off Desire"
2014
They say too much of one thing
Is never good for me
And I should never do for those
That never would for me
So why do I keep reaching out
For one whose hands are tied
Leaving her unable to provide
The things I demand with pride
But the devil's said to hide
In the details that I've shared
And I'd be lying if I said
That I had even cared
'Cause in every dream I've had
You were front and center, love
And there's a monkey on my back
That I've failed to rise above
I guess I'm a junkie for a dream
That I've confused with lust
And when I'm in this state
It's myself that I can't trust
So if you can hear my voice
Would you please put out the fire
'Cause I need to be redeemed
So come and get me off desire
I've learned desire is a drug
And I've relapsed so many times
That once it's inside my veins
It spreads throughout my rhymes
So it's when I think of you
That the want becomes a need
And it's to the itch of seven years
That I truly must concede
'Cause even if I'm driving through the days
With the sun inside the skies
There's a cavalcade of things
Going on behind my eyes
And I'm still prone to flash a smile
When you are playing coy
Because there's a certain part of me
That wants to grow and bring you joy
But I guess I'm a junkie for a dream
That I've confused with lust
And when I'm in this state
It's myself that I can't trust
So if you can hear my voice
Would you please put out the fire
'Cause I need to be redeemed
So come and get me off, desire.
I've been trapped in solitude
For what has felt like years
And I've managed to escape the grip
Of my self-doubt and fears
But it's left me here with loads of time
To recall every single thing
And enjoy each sensation that
They are inclined to bring
See, memories have been replayed
Like favored movies on a screen
And I've recalled a satin web
That felt closer to serene
But the candles lit to show the way
Turned a fly into a moth
Who quickly went beyond control
As the widow bit into his soul
I guess I'm a fiend for memories
Being driven by his lust
And when I'm in this state
It's myself that I can't trust
So if you can hear my voice
Would you please put out the fire
'Cause I need to be redeemed
So come and get me off, desire.
And there was another girl
Who made her way into my arms
I was a bit too shy, too nice a guy
And fell victim to her charms
But what she awoke in me
Has not returned to sleep
As if the growing beast had shown
That he was a savage come to reap
And my confidence has been rebuilt
With every grunt and thrust
Then she placed my hands around her neck
Until the positions would adjust
And when I was clothed, she said the words
That went far beyond a flirt
And it made a part of me so difficult
That it then began to hurt
But I guess I'm a fiend for memories
Being driven by his lust
And when I'm in this state
It's myself that I can't trust
So if you can hear my voice
Would you please put out the fire
'Cause I need to be redeemed
So come and get me off, desire
And now there's a gorgeous queen
Who even hates to hear my name
And my friend, I must admit
That my actions are to blame
But truthfully, it was a lack of them
That turned her love to hate
She misconstrued my absence as
Me forcing her to wait
But truthfully, there were some things
That forced me to be away
And there was some trepidation that
There were three words I would say
But I still often dream of her
And imagine how profound
It would be to give her every inch
As I enjoyed her every sound
But that seems so far removed
From where I am forced to stand
That she's only loved through photographs
And the motions of my hand
And if that is too much for you to hear
It's too much for me to live
But I'm content in the knowledge that
I have vast amount to give
To any girl who's brave enough
To scale the crumbling walls
That I put up so long ago
In attempts to truly show
That I was content to be alone
But now? That's not the truth
I'm looking for demi-goddess who will embrace
A passion intensified by wasted youth
'Cause I'm still a junkie for a dream
That I've confused with lust
And when I'm in this state
It's myself that I can't trust
So if you can hear my voice
Would you please put out the fire
'Cause I need to be redeemed
So come and get me off, desire
And I'm sorry to those I've hurt
And I look forward to those I'll please
And may they never be the same
Unless it's a sort of bedroom game
And for now I'll leave my pen
To recover from this prolonged
Bit of sharing with the world,
As I imagine I'm inside the woman I adore,
Who confessed it's to me
That she, belonged.
