The Overlooked Abyss

Hello everyone. I hope this finds you all in great health and even better spirits. And it's finally that time again. I'm back with a brand new poem. It's called, "The Overlooked Abyss," and it's a piece that I've been fighting with for weeks now. The night my inspiration first struck, I was able to write a good bit in one sitting. But once I hit the wall, I couldn't seem to pick it back up. So I would sit and re-read what I had, over and over, hoping to trigger something. But alas, there was nothing doing. So I hit save, and filed it away for yet another day. But when I got home today, I knew I had the itch to write. So I opened the file, and just let it sit. And after listening to some music, mainly songs by Enigma and Massive Attack, the words began to flow again. And the piece progresses slowly, revealing some rather dark things that often flow through my mind about myself. But then, as it seems to reach a peak of sorts, the theme of the poem shifts and goes into a direction you wouldn't expect from the outset. But I won't spoil that here, lol. You'll have to read and see where it goes. As far as the poem itself, the title just popped into my head, but it's one that I really love. Because I feel there is an overlooked abyss within everyone of us. We sometimes fight to suppress it. We fight to hide it. But it cannot be denied. And this piece speaks to what I feel are the negative aspects of our inner abyss, but then it shifts to what I feel can be the positive aspects of it. And just typing those words, reminds of a great quote from the fabled philosopher, Friedrich Nietzsche. He said, "He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. For if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you." But enough of my rambling, lol. I'll let you all read it now. As always, feel free to leave your thoughts, concerns, and/or constructive criticisms in the comment section below. And as always, thank you all for reading this. It means more than you will ever know.





"The Overlooked Abyss"
2013

Is my head the labyrinth
They made so long ago
'Cause I've been down so long
That my up won't seem to go
Resume its' rightful place
Amongst the brightest lights
So now I'm sitting here
Still wasting precious nights
But I have a reason to believe
That I will see the dawn
'Cause not every night is endless
No, the darkness can't go on
And a soul may come with love
And arms still open wide
But she'll have to watch her step
If she ever gets inside
'Cause I'll take her to the edge
Of the overlooked abyss
Yeah, I've thought myself alive
But I've never felt like this
And yet I'm slightly terrified
That you may have a clue
Since the key to my salvation
Still beats inside of you
But my mind has become a maze
That has a twist for every turn
And the air is filled with haze
From the bridges left to burn
And yet it's still easier to see
That my intentions are unclear
And every possibility
Still suffocates with fear
Thinking that a sure oblivion
Lurks in the darkness down below
But after so many years eclipsed
How could hope begin to grow
When this once fertile ground
Was poisoned to the core
By lies I've told myself
Like, "I don't deserve much more"
Still I have a reason to believe
That I will see the dawn
'Cause not every night is endless
No, the darkness can't go on
And a soul may come with love
And arms still open wide
But she'll have to watch her step
If she ever gets inside
'Cause I'll take her to the edge
Of the overlooked abyss
Yeah, I've thought myself alive
But I've never felt like this
And yet I'm slightly terrified
That you may have a clue
Since the key to my salvation
Still beats inside of you
Yet beyond each precipice
Lies a solid ground in reach
While my growing discontent
Lies like oil upon a beach
And within that blackened sand
Lies each precious grain I've lost
While trying to count the ways
I've deserved to pay the cost
For the darkness in my eyes
That wants to suffocate the light
While knowing if it did
This fool would be proven right
But I'd rather dodge that route
And find another way
To ignite the hope within my veins
And shine throughout the day
Because I once read a quote
That stuck inside my mind
And then I quickly added on
Bits of wisdom that I'd find
He said, "I burn with life
I love, slay, and I'm content."
And it was after reading this
I wondered where my passion went
Had I become such a lonely man
That I would shun the sun?
And would my heart burn with hate
Held tight for everyone?
Where was my lust for life?
And a woman's sweet embrace?
Where was the joy derived
From her lips with every taste?
Where was my inner god
That aimed to conquer flesh?
While drowned in ego's bliss
And proclaimed myself her best?
Using my manly hands as eyes
It's her every curve I'd read
As she climbed on top of me
And rode her bare, majestic steed
While climbing up to every peak
We've ever reached before
Lost inside a mental fog
Described in erotic books of 'lore
As if we learned sweet Tantra's art
Of felt the Kama Sutra's grace
Oh, where is the darling girl
That will bring this about with haste?
'Cause she'll be the reason to believe
That I will see the dawn
For not every night is endless
And the darkness can't go on
Dear, have you come with love
And your legs open wide
'Cause I've longed to watch your eyes
As I slowly went inside
Hoping to take you to the edge
Of the overlooked abyss
'Cause I've thought myself alive
But I've never felt like this
And yet I'm slightly terrified
That you may have a clue
About this growing list of things
That I'd die to do to you...

A Little Update Never Hurt Anyone...

Hello everyone. I hope this finds you all in great health and even better spirits. But I just wanted to take a little time and let everyone know about a few new things on the blog. As the title says, a little update never hurt anyone, lol. For starters, I took the time of updating some older entries. When I was first creating the blog I was uploading so much stuff, that I didn't take the time to include my commentary with every piece. So I've been slowly going back to try and remedy that. I like to include my commentary with each entry, and also an image that I feel encapsulates the overall theme/mood of the piece. So I can kind of give you all some insight into what and why behind each poem I've written. So hopefully it will add to your experience when reading. Because while I wouldn't want to intrude on your interpretation of each piece and what it means to you, I just like being open and sharing with you all. But here's a list of what's new on the blog...

• Commentary added to an older poem called, "The Only Option Is War."
  
• Commentary and image added to "The Perfect Find."
  
• Image added to "The Living Need."
  
• Image added to "What Once They Called."
  
• Commentary and image added to "The Ecstasy Of Self."
  Links were also added to this piece, to explain some of the references made.
  
• Commentary and images added to two-part series:
  "The Devil On My Shoulder Said," and "The Devil Gets To Boast."
  
• Image added to "Skill At Sin."
  
• Image and commentary added to "Rigor Mortis For A Rose."
  
• And a brand new poem called, "A Thinking Man's Fool," was posted last night. (06/03/13)

And there it is folks. That's what new around the place. Hopefully you all will check it out.

-Clyde

A Thinking Man's Fool

Hello everyone. It's that time again, lol. I hope you all are well. I can't really complain, myself. I can't brag about anything, lol. But no real complaints. Anyways, it's time for another poem. This one is called, "A Thinking Man's Fool." And the title just popped into my head the other day, and after typing the title, the words began to flow. And I got pretty far into this piece, before I hit that metaphoric wall. So I saved it, and put it away for another day. And finally, tonight I was able to revisit and ride the idea along the rails until I felt I reached a destination that I could live with. (For now anyway, lol.) But this poem kind of drifts back and forth between moods. It's written with these intentions of being really tongue-in-cheek and playful, whilst also expressing some very dark things about myself that I really wouldn't discuss outside of trusted company. But so often, these types of things come out in my writing. And I honestly don't know if these are things I should share in such a public forum. But it's my belief that I show my truths to the world, then they can never been used against me. My honesty is my armor. And when I have a pen in my hand, in draws its' ink from the heart on my sleeve I guess, lol. But anyways, enough of my rambling here. I'll let you all get to the poem now. And as always, feel free to the leave your thoughts, opinions, and/or constructive criticisms in the comment section below. Thank you all so very much for reading this. It means more than any of you will ever know.

"A Thinking Man's Fool"
2013

There are days I sleep too much
But those are days I need my rest
And there are days I feel the rush
Of a heart that beats inside my chest
And there are days I'll call your name
But then some days I'll send a text
And there are days when I'm ashamed
Of finding out what I'll do next
But these mistakes I make
Prove perfection is a myth
'Cause I'll be Jedi on some days
And on others you'll paint me Sith
But dear that doesn't mean
That I lack humility
No, to me it only means
That we can share a laugh at silly me
'Cause I'll wear the darkest shades
So you can't see my eyes
When I'm staring at your parts
In a way that you'd despise
And I'll wear my heart upon a sleeve
As if instructed by the rules
'Cause it's too hard to play it cool
When this thinking man is such a fool
There are days the sky is blue
And there are days I see only black
Then other days I'm seeing red
And patience's the virtue that I lack
But there are days when I'm laid bare
And the universe brings only pain
And days when thunderstorms can't compare
To the hurricanes inside my brain
Oh, these mistakes I make
Prove perfection is a myth
'Cause I'll be Jedi on some days
And on others you'll paint me Sith
But dear that doesn't mean
That I lack humility
No, to me it only means
That we can share a laugh at silly me
'Cause I'll wear the largest shirts
To try and hide my flaws
And then I'll often read too much
Inside each sentence paused
But I wear my heart upon a sleeve
As if instructed by the rules
'Cause it's too hard to play it cool
When this thinking man is such a fool
There are days when I think too much
And yes this is one of them
And it's become a harder fact to face
It's why my outlook's so damn grim
But I'm not always gloom and doom
No, I have my better days
Like the times that you're inside my room
And you had me count the ways
That I could undress the sacred parts
Seen from behind my darkened shades
While hoping when I'd lift my shirt
Your attraction wouldn't fade
'Cause you can lead a horse to water
But that won't make it drink
And you could tell me that you love me
But my mind will always think
That you're just being nice
Until I give you what you want
And then I'll have to watch you leave
Saying "goodbye" as a taunt
And you'd rip that heart off its' sleeve
Probably place it in your purse
Acting like it's a lovely parting gift
And a thinking man's foolish curse
But these mistakes I make
Prove perfection is a myth
'Cause I'll be Jedi on some days
And on others you'll paint me Sith
But dear that doesn't mean
That I lack humility
No, to me it only means
That we can share a laugh at silly me
'Cause I'll wear the largest shirts
To try and hide my flaws
And then I'll often read too much
Inside each sentence paused
But I wear my heart upon a sleeve
As if instructed by the rules
'Cause it's too hard to play it cool
When this thinking man is such a fool
Love, won't you say a word to me
That'll make me feel alright
Or will this perception truly be
Mine for a long and endless night
'Cause I'd rather see a day
When someone took my fears away
And the monsters in my head
Were either silent for left for dead
And I believe your kiss is powerful
But I haven't felt it heal
The shattered image behind the eyes
That only I can recognize
And this mirror is not to blame
I've slowly learned that fact
It's just years and years of loneliness
Have left me here devoid of tact
But these mistakes I make
Prove perfection is a myth
'Cause I'll be Jedi on some days
And on others you'll paint me Sith
But dear that doesn't mean
That I lack humility
No, to me it only means
That we can share a laugh at silly me
'Cause I'll wear the darkest shades
So you can't see my eyes
When I'm staring at your parts
In a way that you'd despise
And I'll wear my heart upon a sleeve
As if instructed by the rules
'Cause it's too hard to play it cool
When this thinking man is such a fool
And there are times truth be told
Where you will think me cold
But dear, please know that this is true
This thinking man is a fool,
But he'd rather be a fool for you...