"The Darkness Comes In Waves"
2014
This wretched disposition
Seems to fit me like a glove
'Cause I'm more comfortable with thoughts
That are far removed from love
So if this anger boiling up
Tends to burn you at the touch
Just know you are to blame
For suppressing it too much
I've felt the hopelessness return
That I once fought in vain
As reminders from your eyes
Are pouring down like rain
'Cause my darkness comes in waves
With the anger of the tide
And it's eroding everything
That you want to save inside
Now I know you're going to strike
Your favorite victim pose
Pretending not to have your thorns
When I stop reaching for your rose
But I know your sharpest point
Hides just behind your teeth
For I know the wonders of your tongue
And I know there's venom just beneath
I've felt the hopelessness return
That I once fought in vain
As reminders from your eyes
Are pouring down like rain
'Cause my darkness comes in waves
With the anger of the tide
And it's eroding everything
That you want to save inside
You can build your castles on the beach
And display them with your pride
But there's a certain fate for things
That can never be denied
So you can build your walls
To keep these things at bay
'Cause I once tried to do the same
But the pain will never go away
So you can duck and dodge
Or even run and hide
But I'm not seeing any place
With a shred of safety to provide
I've felt the hopelessness return
That I once fought in vain
As reminders from your eyes
Are pouring down like rain
'Cause my darkness comes in waves
With the anger of the tide
And it's eroding everything
That you want to save inside
Oh, dear I think it best
If you saved your breath and prayers
'Cause if there really is a god
I doubt he even cares
'Cause it seems this silly world
Is still spinning it its' space
And I've begun to hate that pretty thing
That some would call your face
'Cause the sight of you annoys
And the sound of you disgusts
And there are some heavy things
That we really must discuss
Tell me, how could I love someone
That I've never truly met
And why should I remember things
That I'm dying to forget
How could I want someone
That I have never fucked
Knowing if I touched that certain spot
I'd hope it made you self-destruct
Because you're nothing to me now
Yeah, less than you ever were
And I'm grateful for every fucking thing
That never did occur
So when my pen finally stops its' bleed
And the ink finally gets to dry
I hope I get to sit back here and watch
As your optimism dies
So you can feel the hopelessness return
That I once fought in vain
As reminders from your eyes
Are pouring down like rain
'Cause my darkness comes in waves
With the anger of the tide
And it's eroding everything
That you want to save inside
I bet you would tell your little friends
About the fool I used to be
But now my skin is peeling back
To reveal the beast I need to be
WIth claws that feel like knives
And teeth with a taste for death
Knowing that revenge is on my mind
For the years of wasted breath
Like telling you so many things
That I never should have said
'Cause I was a fool lost in fantasies
Who lived inside his head
And then you came crashing in
So many moons ago
Promising to lead me into happiness
As I was bathed in your lovely glow
But for all your beauty, dear
The games became too much
A condition on everything
Using negotiation as a crutch
To prop up the broken dreams
That fell to pieces in my eyes
When you knew more than fucking well
That I was different from the guys
That you gave yourself to
Without a contract or a clause
But giving me a sentence full of words
Made you feel worthy of applause?
Now I'd like to give you a hand
Or maybe a pair around your neck
But I'm not the abusive type
The last time I thought to check
So fear not for safety
I lost my lust for touching you
It's just your hopes and self-esteem
That I hope I'm crushing too
I've felt the hopelessness return
That I once fought in vain
As reminders from your eyes
Are pouring down like rain
'Cause my darkness comes in waves
With the anger of the tide
And it's eroding everything
That you want to save inside...
