The Overlooked Abyss

Hello everyone. I hope this finds you all in great health and even better spirits. And it's finally that time again. I'm back with a brand new poem. It's called, "The Overlooked Abyss," and it's a piece that I've been fighting with for weeks now. The night my inspiration first struck, I was able to write a good bit in one sitting. But once I hit the wall, I couldn't seem to pick it back up. So I would sit and re-read what I had, over and over, hoping to trigger something. But alas, there was nothing doing. So I hit save, and filed it away for yet another day. But when I got home today, I knew I had the itch to write. So I opened the file, and just let it sit. And after listening to some music, mainly songs by Enigma and Massive Attack, the words began to flow again. And the piece progresses slowly, revealing some rather dark things that often flow through my mind about myself. But then, as it seems to reach a peak of sorts, the theme of the poem shifts and goes into a direction you wouldn't expect from the outset. But I won't spoil that here, lol. You'll have to read and see where it goes. As far as the poem itself, the title just popped into my head, but it's one that I really love. Because I feel there is an overlooked abyss within everyone of us. We sometimes fight to suppress it. We fight to hide it. But it cannot be denied. And this piece speaks to what I feel are the negative aspects of our inner abyss, but then it shifts to what I feel can be the positive aspects of it. And just typing those words, reminds of a great quote from the fabled philosopher, Friedrich Nietzsche. He said, "He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. For if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you." But enough of my rambling, lol. I'll let you all read it now. As always, feel free to leave your thoughts, concerns, and/or constructive criticisms in the comment section below. And as always, thank you all for reading this. It means more than you will ever know.





"The Overlooked Abyss"
2013

Is my head the labyrinth
They made so long ago
'Cause I've been down so long
That my up won't seem to go
Resume its' rightful place
Amongst the brightest lights
So now I'm sitting here
Still wasting precious nights
But I have a reason to believe
That I will see the dawn
'Cause not every night is endless
No, the darkness can't go on
And a soul may come with love
And arms still open wide
But she'll have to watch her step
If she ever gets inside
'Cause I'll take her to the edge
Of the overlooked abyss
Yeah, I've thought myself alive
But I've never felt like this
And yet I'm slightly terrified
That you may have a clue
Since the key to my salvation
Still beats inside of you
But my mind has become a maze
That has a twist for every turn
And the air is filled with haze
From the bridges left to burn
And yet it's still easier to see
That my intentions are unclear
And every possibility
Still suffocates with fear
Thinking that a sure oblivion
Lurks in the darkness down below
But after so many years eclipsed
How could hope begin to grow
When this once fertile ground
Was poisoned to the core
By lies I've told myself
Like, "I don't deserve much more"
Still I have a reason to believe
That I will see the dawn
'Cause not every night is endless
No, the darkness can't go on
And a soul may come with love
And arms still open wide
But she'll have to watch her step
If she ever gets inside
'Cause I'll take her to the edge
Of the overlooked abyss
Yeah, I've thought myself alive
But I've never felt like this
And yet I'm slightly terrified
That you may have a clue
Since the key to my salvation
Still beats inside of you
Yet beyond each precipice
Lies a solid ground in reach
While my growing discontent
Lies like oil upon a beach
And within that blackened sand
Lies each precious grain I've lost
While trying to count the ways
I've deserved to pay the cost
For the darkness in my eyes
That wants to suffocate the light
While knowing if it did
This fool would be proven right
But I'd rather dodge that route
And find another way
To ignite the hope within my veins
And shine throughout the day
Because I once read a quote
That stuck inside my mind
And then I quickly added on
Bits of wisdom that I'd find
He said, "I burn with life
I love, slay, and I'm content."
And it was after reading this
I wondered where my passion went
Had I become such a lonely man
That I would shun the sun?
And would my heart burn with hate
Held tight for everyone?
Where was my lust for life?
And a woman's sweet embrace?
Where was the joy derived
From her lips with every taste?
Where was my inner god
That aimed to conquer flesh?
While drowned in ego's bliss
And proclaimed myself her best?
Using my manly hands as eyes
It's her every curve I'd read
As she climbed on top of me
And rode her bare, majestic steed
While climbing up to every peak
We've ever reached before
Lost inside a mental fog
Described in erotic books of 'lore
As if we learned sweet Tantra's art
Of felt the Kama Sutra's grace
Oh, where is the darling girl
That will bring this about with haste?
'Cause she'll be the reason to believe
That I will see the dawn
For not every night is endless
And the darkness can't go on
Dear, have you come with love
And your legs open wide
'Cause I've longed to watch your eyes
As I slowly went inside
Hoping to take you to the edge
Of the overlooked abyss
'Cause I've thought myself alive
But I've never felt like this
And yet I'm slightly terrified
That you may have a clue
About this growing list of things
That I'd die to do to you...