Suffocate The Flame

Hello again everyone. You should know by now that I hope this finds you all in great health and even better spirits. Glad to say that I am back with another new poem. This poem in particular was part of a trilogy of unrelated poems that I started one night, over a month ago now, and just never finished. Thankfully, I revisited what I had written a few nights ago, and began to get inspired to write again. After listening to some A Perfect Circle, the gears began to turn, and I picked up almost right where I left off. And I say almost because this is one of those instances where the original thread I was working with, changed ever so slightly upon this re-visit. See, the poem is called, "Suffocate The Flame," and was inspired by a conversation I had with a very special person. She remarked to me how, in order to protect her heart and not feel too strongly for someone, she will make a conscious choice to ignore that person. Because, talking to them, and interacting with me will only make her want them more. And that is a train of thought that I can certainly understand. Because I've actually done that in the past. But it was after that conversation that I began to write originally. And the poem was going to have this underlying sentiment of someone basically saying to their lover that, "you want to forget me but you can't. Because no one else can love you or make love to you like I can." But that's the night that I hit the proverbial wall, and couldn't write anymore. But a few nights ago, when I did start to write again, the poem almost took on a life of it's own. And now the sentiment has changed from what was intended, to one of "you want to forget me, but you can't. But at the end of the day, you really should, because I'm no good for you." But of course, the actual poem is more verbose than that, lol. Anyway, I'll stop rambling and let you all read it now. I know I always say it, but it means the world to me that you all take the time to read all of this.
So thank you.
Really.
Thank you all so very much.

 

"Suffocate The Flame"
2013

Has my change in disposition
Left your feet on shaky ground?
Have the echoes of assumptions
Left you with a haunting sound?
Have you felt an emptiness
For which I am now to blame?
Or has there been a night
Where you wished to scream my name?
'Cause beneath the arm that sealed you in
Lies a place you'd go again
Where you were delighted slightly
Thinking this should happen nightly
And I know that you've been wishing
For things I did not provide
So there's no need to wonder
Why your feelings have been denied
You want to suffocate the flame
And hope it never burns
But you can't escape the heat
'Cause the body never learns
That you can't suffocate the flame
'Cause it will only rise
To the heights you've never seen
With your disgruntled eyes
Has withdrawal left you with it's symptoms?
Like a strong aversion to the fumes?
You know, the kind that left us blind
And stumbling 'til our dance resumed?
Baby, have I been your worst?
Or just the one you wish to love?
Or am I the darkened magnet that
You've failed to rise above?
'Cause beneath the arm that sealed you in
Lies a place you'd go again
Where you were delighted slightly
Thinking this should happen nightly
And I know that you've been wishing
For things I did not provide
So there's no need to wonder
Why your feelings have been denied
You want to suffocate the flame
And hope it never burns
But you can't escape the heat
'Cause the body never learns
That you can't suffocate the flame
'Cause it will only rise
To the heights you've never seen
With your disgruntled eyes
Such a circumstantial silence
Has filled the growing space
That's between the both of us
Since we were last face to face
But that is more my fault
Than it ever was your own
Since I've brought things to a hault
And left you all alone
But it's really for the best
If you're asking honestly
Because deep inside my chest
There's a hole within my soul
And no matter how I try
Or how much I used to pray
There's a doubt inside of me
That won't ever go away
So baby, you should leave me
And go about your better days
And you will forget me with some time
Then you can file me under, "phase."
And then you can find a man
That spends more time loving you
Than hating on himself
And maybe he'll even have
That good book on his shelf
Instead of lonely pictures
Fit inside of broken frames
Shit, maybe when we're done
We'll forget each other's names
But that's another thing I doubt
Since you were wonderful indeed
But now I will step aside
So you can find the affection that you need
'Cause beneath the arm that sealed you in
Lies a heart that barely beats
But it's trying to let its' anger go
Hoping that it has some more to show
And I know that you've been wishing
For things I did not provide
So there's no need to wonder
Why your feelings have been denied
You want to suffocate the flame
And hope it never burns
But you can't escape the heat
'Cause the body never learns
That you can't suffocate the flame
'Cause it will only rise
To the heights you've never seen
With your disgruntled eyes
But baby, if you blink
Please don't picture me at all
Because I don't deserve your thoughts
Nor do I deserve a call
So forget me for the best
Or remember at your worst
But never stop your moving on
The steps get easier past the first
And if you find me in a glass of wine
But sure to drink me down
'Cause things will go much smoother
If my reflection's not around
So don't the coldness of a beer
Remind you of me dear,
Nor let a straight shot of something hard
Force your pretty eyes to tear
'Cause what is meant to be will be
But I think it for the best
If you just stayed away from me
'Cause all I seem to do is weigh you down...