A Post Independence Day Update!!!!

Hello everyone!!

Just wanted to give you all a quick update
and let you know what's new!!!

(Let's hear it for new shit!!! Lol.)

I have two, brand new poems posted.

And they are:

The Overlooked Abyss

Dirty, Stained Glass


So be sure to check them out and leave your thoughts in the comment sections!!!!

- Clyde

Dirty, Stained Glass

Hello again everyone. It's that time again. Finally back with another new piece. I hope you all had a great 4th of July holiday. And I hope this finds you all in great health and even better spirits. I've been okay, myself. Under the circumstances. But I'm not going to get into that, I'll just get straight into the poem. This piece is one that I've been fighting with since my last entry. It seems like I started this one in a flurry, but then my inspiration dried up quickly. Thankfully, I was able to revisit it and finish it tonight. I was inspired by listening to some amazing music from an artist known as The Weeknd. If you all aren't familiar with him, I assure you that you would want to do just that. The man is amazing singer, and the music he sings over is almost hypnotic in a way. And I just listened to a bunch of his music on my ipod, while re-reading what I had saved for this poem. And suddenly, the words started flowing again. And I didn't stop until it was finished. And what results is a pretty dark poem. It's written from the perspective from a man who is sitting in a bar room, and is drowning his sorrows. And the distorted image he sees of himself, at the bottom of the glass, matches how he feels about himself normally. So he recounts his tale to whoever is listening around him. And hopefully, despite the subject matter, you all will enjoy reading this. And thank you in advance for taking the time to do so. It means more to me than you will ever know...

"Dirty, Stained Glass"
2013

Set deep within the structure
Of a tale already told
Lies a point of view I'm sharing
That's not considered bold
See, I'm not picture perfect
A glimpse will turn your head
And maybe turn your stomach
Or so I've often said
But there's a bit of complication
Each time that we'd connect
Leaving you to say it isn't working
And I feel that you're correct
So if you feel me slipping
Then baby let me go
'Cause I will only hurt you
It's best for you to know
That I really don't deserve you
And maybe never will
Since there's something in my mind
That I can't seem to kill
And set deep along the edges
Of this current line I've towed
Lies the unknown that I've feared
That you have fought to show
To these tired eyes of mine
Who seek some better sights
Unaware it is myself
That's to blame for current plights
And there's a bit of contradiction
Inside these words of mine
Leaving you to have enough
While wanting out this time
So if you feel me slipping
Then baby let me go
'Cause I will only hurt you
It's best for you to know
That I really don't deserve you
And maybe never will
Since there's something in my mind
That I can't seem to kill
But then she said,
"I do feel you slipping
But I will not let go
'Cause that is what you want
An excuse to remain this low
And I can't change your mind
But I'm hoping that you'll find
The greater things in you,
That I already see
Since I've already fallen for
The man I believe you're gonna be
And set deep within my heart
Lies a love that's burning bright
While your world is upside down
And it's time we got it turning right
So baby, disregard those thoughts
Ringing loudly in your ears
'Cause you're a lovely man
Falling prey to childish fears
And I'm here to prove to you
What I have said before
And that's that everything I love
Is still worth fighting for
But it seems you've lost your will
And very urge to fight
As if you've grown tired of days
And only find comfort in the night
But that's not good enough for me
Neither is your apathy
So I feel I have to leave
Just to make you mad at me
Maybe then I'll make you feel
Something close to love
And forget this pity party
That you've failed to rise above
'Cause I've heard enough of that
To last for this life and the next
And I refuse to cut myself
On these pieces of regrets
So I'll let my heart pump
And refuse to let it bleed
Until you meet me halfway
And give me everything I need..."
And after hearing that
I wonder how I should respond
When my thoughts were making waves
Not unlike ripples in a pond
But I've been frozen in state
That some would label numb
And I don't know how to love
I only how to make a woman cum
But it's time I came correct
And offered up some truth
I've been too afraid to live
Think I've wasted all my youth
So how I'm supposed to find a path
When I'm still learning how to walk
After years of crawling on my knees
Proving to some that all I do is talk
Yeah, I can say the right thing
But fail to act at every wrong time
And so I haven't felt her tight thing
In a very long time
And I have not another soul to blame
Except the one that's staring back
From this dirty, stained glass
That's inspired bad luck with it's visible crack
And it's the kind of image seen
That could make a man drink
'Cause it seems nobody understands
These things I'm able to think
But now I wanna crawl out
From underneath this dark cloud
So I will drink and shut my mind off
After I say these statements aloud
Oh girl, if you feel me slipping
Then you need to let me go
'Cause I will only hurt you
It's for the best to let you know
That I really don't deserve you
And maybe never will
Since there's something in my mind
That I can't seem to kill
So somebody pour me another drink
And let me try to drown
The weight of these sorrows
That always hold this fool down...

The Overlooked Abyss

Hello everyone. I hope this finds you all in great health and even better spirits. And it's finally that time again. I'm back with a brand new poem. It's called, "The Overlooked Abyss," and it's a piece that I've been fighting with for weeks now. The night my inspiration first struck, I was able to write a good bit in one sitting. But once I hit the wall, I couldn't seem to pick it back up. So I would sit and re-read what I had, over and over, hoping to trigger something. But alas, there was nothing doing. So I hit save, and filed it away for yet another day. But when I got home today, I knew I had the itch to write. So I opened the file, and just let it sit. And after listening to some music, mainly songs by Enigma and Massive Attack, the words began to flow again. And the piece progresses slowly, revealing some rather dark things that often flow through my mind about myself. But then, as it seems to reach a peak of sorts, the theme of the poem shifts and goes into a direction you wouldn't expect from the outset. But I won't spoil that here, lol. You'll have to read and see where it goes. As far as the poem itself, the title just popped into my head, but it's one that I really love. Because I feel there is an overlooked abyss within everyone of us. We sometimes fight to suppress it. We fight to hide it. But it cannot be denied. And this piece speaks to what I feel are the negative aspects of our inner abyss, but then it shifts to what I feel can be the positive aspects of it. And just typing those words, reminds of a great quote from the fabled philosopher, Friedrich Nietzsche. He said, "He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. For if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you." But enough of my rambling, lol. I'll let you all read it now. As always, feel free to leave your thoughts, concerns, and/or constructive criticisms in the comment section below. And as always, thank you all for reading this. It means more than you will ever know.





"The Overlooked Abyss"
2013

Is my head the labyrinth
They made so long ago
'Cause I've been down so long
That my up won't seem to go
Resume its' rightful place
Amongst the brightest lights
So now I'm sitting here
Still wasting precious nights
But I have a reason to believe
That I will see the dawn
'Cause not every night is endless
No, the darkness can't go on
And a soul may come with love
And arms still open wide
But she'll have to watch her step
If she ever gets inside
'Cause I'll take her to the edge
Of the overlooked abyss
Yeah, I've thought myself alive
But I've never felt like this
And yet I'm slightly terrified
That you may have a clue
Since the key to my salvation
Still beats inside of you
But my mind has become a maze
That has a twist for every turn
And the air is filled with haze
From the bridges left to burn
And yet it's still easier to see
That my intentions are unclear
And every possibility
Still suffocates with fear
Thinking that a sure oblivion
Lurks in the darkness down below
But after so many years eclipsed
How could hope begin to grow
When this once fertile ground
Was poisoned to the core
By lies I've told myself
Like, "I don't deserve much more"
Still I have a reason to believe
That I will see the dawn
'Cause not every night is endless
No, the darkness can't go on
And a soul may come with love
And arms still open wide
But she'll have to watch her step
If she ever gets inside
'Cause I'll take her to the edge
Of the overlooked abyss
Yeah, I've thought myself alive
But I've never felt like this
And yet I'm slightly terrified
That you may have a clue
Since the key to my salvation
Still beats inside of you
Yet beyond each precipice
Lies a solid ground in reach
While my growing discontent
Lies like oil upon a beach
And within that blackened sand
Lies each precious grain I've lost
While trying to count the ways
I've deserved to pay the cost
For the darkness in my eyes
That wants to suffocate the light
While knowing if it did
This fool would be proven right
But I'd rather dodge that route
And find another way
To ignite the hope within my veins
And shine throughout the day
Because I once read a quote
That stuck inside my mind
And then I quickly added on
Bits of wisdom that I'd find
He said, "I burn with life
I love, slay, and I'm content."
And it was after reading this
I wondered where my passion went
Had I become such a lonely man
That I would shun the sun?
And would my heart burn with hate
Held tight for everyone?
Where was my lust for life?
And a woman's sweet embrace?
Where was the joy derived
From her lips with every taste?
Where was my inner god
That aimed to conquer flesh?
While drowned in ego's bliss
And proclaimed myself her best?
Using my manly hands as eyes
It's her every curve I'd read
As she climbed on top of me
And rode her bare, majestic steed
While climbing up to every peak
We've ever reached before
Lost inside a mental fog
Described in erotic books of 'lore
As if we learned sweet Tantra's art
Of felt the Kama Sutra's grace
Oh, where is the darling girl
That will bring this about with haste?
'Cause she'll be the reason to believe
That I will see the dawn
For not every night is endless
And the darkness can't go on
Dear, have you come with love
And your legs open wide
'Cause I've longed to watch your eyes
As I slowly went inside
Hoping to take you to the edge
Of the overlooked abyss
'Cause I've thought myself alive
But I've never felt like this
And yet I'm slightly terrified
That you may have a clue
About this growing list of things
That I'd die to do to you...