Ctrl+Alt+Del

 

"Ctrl+Alt+Del"
2012

I often have wandered
Down paths that I've tread
All without any thinking
Just scratching my head
I moved in any direction
With a lack of discretion
Now I'm so lost and uncertain
With so much to question
But no answers are given
To someone like me
So cold and ungrateful
For all that I see
But then I start praying
When I'm in a mess
All while hiding my wish
For someone to press
Control, alt, delete,
I'm so incomplete
And I'm dying for bliss
And my soul to meet
I've been down on my knees,
Before finding my feet
But I'm still prone to thinking,
"My pain's on repeat."
So will you forgive me
For things that I've done
And halt this train of thought
That I couldn't outrun
For I'm the conductor
With full steam ahead
And it's just a matter of time
Before I end up dead
But that will be something
For someone who cares
Like those failing to see
My beautiful flares
That have burned on the nights
When I reached a low
Because a burning self-hatred
Just continued to glow
But help isn't given
To someone like me
So cold and ungrateful
For all that I see
But then I start praying
When I'm in a mess
All while hiding my wish
For someone to press
Control, alt, delete,
I'm so incomplete
And I'm dying for bliss,
And my soul to meet
I've been down on my knees,
Before finding my feet
But I'm still prone to thinking,
"My pain's on repeat."
Oh, Lord, if I had a dime,
For each fucking time
That I've ever failed
I could build me a shrine
But after each bill would fold
I'd have nothing to hold
Because I'm just a fool
Undeserving of gold
So someone tell the rich
They'll never worry in the least
Because I will never own
Anything above a lease
Since this working life of mine
Has only made me a slave
Leave me to the water I tread
And I'll break in each wave
Because nothing is given
To someone like me
So cold and ungrateful
For all that I see
But then I start praying
When I'm in a mess
All while hiding my wish
For someone to press
Control, alt, delete,
I'm so incomplete
And I'm dying for bliss,
And my soul to meet
I've been down on my knees,
Before finding my feet
But I'm still prone to thinking,
"My pain's on repeat."
And the world's still in motion
So I have a notion
That your expectations
Are still vast like an ocean
But would you rather see
Me drowned in that sea
Or with a penny for the one
That's burned in effigy
'Cause fate isn't kind
To someone like me
Who's cold and ungrateful
For all that I see
But then I start praying
When I'm in a mess
All while hiding my wish
For someone to press
Control, alt, delete,
I'm so incomplete
And I'm dying for bliss,
And my soul to meet
I've been down on my knees,
Before finding my feet
But I'm still prone to thinking,
"My pain's on repeat."
And why can't you see
That I'm such a mess
And if there is a God
You'll be a good friend and press,
Control, alt, delete,
I'm so incomplete
And I'm dying for bliss,
To take hold within
I've been down on my knees,
Before finding my feet
But I'm still prone to screaming,
"Will this... ever... end?!"