This Brand Of Execution

"This Brand Of Execution"
2012

They say I waste too many days
Wrapped up in my head
And I waste too many nights
Just lying in the bed
When I should be living out
The dreams I used to dream
'Cause now I walk outside
And it makes me want to scream
And I know these words may sound
Like things I've said before
But you should know the difference is
This time I mean it more
So please believe me when I say...
This brand of execution
Is better for results
'Cause now I feel alive
Stop checking for my pulse
And strap in for a ride
As I aim for the sky
'Cause the life I was denied
Will be mine before I die
And I've wasted every chance
To tell you how I feel
'Cause my heart's a gaping would
That just won't seem to heal
But I should never fault you
For things you didn't do
And just commend the rougher seas
That you've ridden through
And I know these words may sound
Like things I've said before
But you should know the difference is
This time I mean it more
So please believe me when I say...
This brand of execution
Is better for results
'Cause now I feel alive
Stop checking for my pulse
And strap in for a ride
As I aim for the sky
'Cause the life I was denied
Will be mine before I die
See, I was once the portrait
A life of wasted paint
And I never gave solutions
Just tired, old complaints
So it made people disappear
And, I then grew into this
Through fault that was my own
There was so much that I missed
And I'm too far from perfect
To ever get it back
But I acknowledge all the things
I'm feeling that I lack
But now I need room
To try and spread the wings
That often weighed me down
Now they'll get me off the ground
And I know these words may sound
Like things I've said before
But you should know the difference is
This time I mean it more
So please believe me when I say...
This brand of execution
Is better for results
'Cause now I feel alive
Stop checking for my pulse
And strap in for a ride
As I aim for the sky
'Cause the life I was denied
Will be mine before I die
And I've found...
There's beauty in darkness
And there's ugly in light
I'm so tired of wasting
The day and the night
And I'll close my eyes
I just want to breathe
The taste of the air
That once caused me to seethe
Because it was filled
With the smell of a life
That I was too scared to live
So now, I close my eyes and say
This brand of execution
Is better for results
'Cause now I feel alive
Stop checking for my pulse
And strap in for a ride
As I aim for the sky
'Cause the life I was denied
Will be mine before I die
And I know these words may sound
Like things I've said before
But you should know the difference is
This time I mean it more
And I know my promises were like
Fingernails I used to bite
'Cause I never noticed them
Until they came undone
But to the people that I've hurt
Or the ones still throwing dirt
You will see me smile and say
Look at all that I've become
And whether it's for better or for worse
I had to get started moving first
Instead of standing still
With all this time to kill
As it was pouring down the glass
Into the half we'd label past
But since I can't stop the sand
I'll just have to finally take a stand
And use this brand of execution
That's better for results
'Cause now I feel alive
So stop checking for my pulse
And strap in for a ride
I aiming for the sky
'Cause the life I was denied
Must be mine before I die
Yeah, it must be mine before I die
So I'm aiming for the sky
And I see I'll never reach it
If I don't get off my ass and try
To shake the disposition
That's felt so much like home
And left me as the kind of man
That spends his nights alone
Because I know there's more to me
Than I ever tried to see
And I'm more than capable
Of being the man I'd like to be
So get started making way
I'll greet no obstacle today
And according to my pulse
I'll have plenty more to say
And I know these words may sound
Like things I've said before
But you should know the difference is
This time I mean it more
So... will you... believe... this time?