In The Sand

This was a poem that was written on a night when I was really down. I was kind of overwhelmed by my doubts and unsure of where I was going in life. And I started feeling like I was in quicksand. Unfortunately, I feel that way more often now than I did then. But at the time, thinking about the subject of quicksand, it reminded of that picture with one set of footprints in the sand, that was supposed to symbolize that's when God was carrying you through the rough times in your life. So this was my short written way of questioning why I only say my footprints in the quicksand.

"In The Sand"
2009
 
I started out as just a young boy
And things were much simpler then
But then I grew into something
That hides just beneath my skin
And it only comes out in darkness
Or when I'm outside your light
And friend I think the worst part is
That you won't make it right
Now I look to the sky
But I sink further down
And I don't know why
I feel like you're not around
And I start to fall apart
So I can't reach your hand
But right from the start
I've only seen my prints inside the sand.
When did pain and my life marry
Was it when my outlook was bleak
I thought you were supposed to carry
Me through the times I felt weak
But I guess I can't blame you
'Cause I can't bare my own shame
But when most would only name you
I'm the fool who does it in vain
Now I look to the sky
But I sink further down
And I don't know why
I feel like you're not around
And I start to fall apart
So I can't reach your hand
But right from the start
I've only seen my prints inside the sand.
This is the song that i sing
When I've lost everything
That cannot be regained
So I'm embracing the pain
To remind the world
That I'm still alive
I'm just trying to reclaim
The lost will to survive
But no one noticed, not even me
So now there are no ideas of how I'll even be
Now that I look to the sky
But I sink further down
And I don't know why
I feel like you're not around
And I start to fall apart
So I can't reach your hand
But right from the start
I've only seen my prints inside the sand.