Despair Renewed

"Despair Renewed"
2010

Here I sit alone again
With the chair that holds me still
Time's become the enemy
That I have sought to kill
With constructive things I wish to do
But my rage won't let me breathe
So I suffocate my tired smile
Because I choose to seethe
And just recall the path I used to tread
Before my hopes were left for dead
But like all things we once set free
I don't forsee their return to me
So do your best to clear the way
And make room for solitude
Because my faith has turned to ash
And it means despair has been renewed
Now another day is in the books
So should we turn the page
Since the sun has lost its' fight
And the moon has left its' cage
But as I lay my head to rest
My thoughts are still consumed
With the one I left on pause
Who hoped I would resume
Walking down the path I used to tread
Before my hopes were left for dead
But like all things we once set free
I don't forsee their return to me
So do your best to clear the way
And make room for solitude
Because my faith has turned to ash
And it means despair has been renewed
So I think it's best to let them go
And bid goodbye to better parts
Cause the present can't escape the past
So a brighter future never starts
And the things that used to matter most
Have begun to matter least
While friends just start to voice concerns
Hoping it will help the madness cease
To block the path I used to tread
Before my hopes were left for dead
But like all things we once set free
I don't forsee their return to me
So do your best to clear the way
And make room for solitude
Because my faith has turned to ash
And it means despair has been renewed
Since I was weighed on metaphoric scales
And all my wants have come to light
It feels like all my prayers are screened
While my sins won't help me right
All the times I once felt wronged
Causing bitterness to choke the voice
Of the once proud and happy soul
That knew how it felt to just rejoice
While walking down the path I used to tread
Before my hopes were left for dead
But like all things we once set free
I don't forsee their return to me
So do your best to clear the way
And make room for solitude
Because my faith has turned to ash
And it means despair has been renewed.