Disappointment Reigns

"Disappointment Reigns"
2010

Hello old friend,
I feel we're still acquainted
'Cause this life that I lead
Has become so very tainted
By the stains you've left
On your path through my dreams
Which leads me to believe
That nothing's what it seems
For I know you too well
Like we're joined at the hip
And I tend to feel your touch
Each time that I should slip
And your embrace hasn't changed
It's still in possession of its' strength
But to escape its' reach again
I would go to any length
But who could I kid
I've become so well adjusted
That any new friend in life
Is seldom ever trusted
Thanks to the words you spoke
Softly in my ear
That seemed to bring me back
Each and every year
To this cold and dark room,
Still hiding from the sun
Like the light would do me wrong
When all was said and done
But the only time I felt hurt
Is when you decided to return
After leaving me alone
As each bridge began to burn
And I could display a third degree
But they would never notice me
So just how optimisitc
Is a man supposed to be
When he's what life would choose
To quickly wipe its' shoes
And with so many shades of gray
It's hard not to sing the blues
Since so many never cared
They just offered up a list
Of so many little things
They found easy to resist
Yet they're telling him to smile
'Cause nobody likes a frown
But when you don't paddle for awhile
It's much easier to drown
And let the waves take you in
When there's no reason left to fight
And wrong is the mirage
That begins to seem right
So you let it chip away
At the hole in your soul
And watch nobody lose sleep
As you start losing your control
Then disappointment reigns
Much to your dismay
And it's those three little words
That no soul will ever say
Welcome to my world friend
Just make yourself at home
And no matter what it takes
You'll have to make it on your own
So you can cry, you can pray
But things will never change
And what doesn't kill you here
Will only make you strange
And just a little numb
To the games they like to play
But when they let the cards fall
Nobody ever wants to stay
To pick the pieces back up
And rebuild your every part
But if you stayed together
They would've took the credit from the start
But I guess that's just life
Beneath the iron hand of fate
And the glass won't stop the sands
So who am I to hate
Other than myself
At least that's who I'd blame
For the reasons I have listed
And this mess that I became
But I have said enough
As the ink begins to dry
And begins to mirror what I see
Just the blackness of the sky
The moon's been obscured
And the stars are hiding now
But when something's weighing on your heart
You should do your best to write it down...