Is This Love?

"Is This Love?"
2010

In my past there's a presence
That I'm unable to shake
And boils down in essence
To my biggest mistake
And its' shadow still lingers
Just over my head
And I remember her crying
Just after she said
"If this is love
Then I'd prefer your hate
And if this is real,
Then I'd prefer the fake
And I'll wait here
Til what I know love to be
Is stated clear,
Or shows a sign to me."
In my present lie ashes
Of the bridges I've burned
Like a pile of reminders
For the lessons I've learned
Since the hard way knows best
Or that's how it seems
Still her words and her tears
Are haunting my dreams
And she said, "if this is love
Then I'd prefer your hate
And if this is real,
Then I'd prefer the fake
And I'll wait here
Til what I know love to be
Is stated clear,
Or shows a sign to me."
And what's making the news
Is she's feeling so used
And I hate to say
That she should feel that way
'Cause temptation came
And left me holding the blame
For that bit of pain
When she says my name
Then she looked me in the eye
And said, "can you tell me why
The person I thought you were
Has caused this to occur
After claiming he differed from
The kind of man you've now become
And as much as I hate to say
I really need to get away
'Cause if this is love
Then I'd prefer your hate
And if this is real,
Then I'd prefer the fake
And I'll wait here
Til what I know love to be
Is stated clear,
Or shows a sign to me."
Now I see the broken frames
That are covered in shards
Of her broken heart
And my house of cards
That came tumbling down
Thanks to actions of mine
And I long for the redemption
That may come in time
But for now I'm out of her sight
And our of her mind
Since karma's proved to be
More than a little unkind...